A Beautiful Mess
God has ordained these days for me:
The chaotic moments. The beautiful moments. The unsure moments. The mundane laundry and cleaning, dishes and diapers. The spontaneous times with my boys, that brings me more joy than I could ever imagine. I tend to feel overwhelmed often, by all that needs to be done. There have been challenges. The sadness in saying goodbye to my Grandpa as he held Parker for the first and last time. The chance to find resilience when ministry is hard. These days have been full.
But God doesn't look away -- God has placed all of this in my life right now. Not because He knew that I could handle it: He placed all of this in my life, because He knew it would give me a choice: A choice to trust Him for more miracles.
At the end of this season, I will be able to look back and know, without a shadow of a doubt, that God carried me through. It was His strength and joy.
This life is a beautiful, beautiful mess...